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Sunday, July 20th, 2003
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2:40 am
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I have a new job at The Stand; a natural foods restaurant in Laguna Beach. THE "secret society" is revealing itself and i feel like a little kid again and i have not woken up from this dream called summer and the constant influx of groceries.
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| Friday, May 9th, 2003
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4:27 pm
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If anyone in the world is a size 5 and 1/2 or 6, I have discovered at least 4 or 5 wonderful pairs of shoes and i will sell them to you for very cheap. Most of them are old fashion flats.
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| Sunday, April 27th, 2003
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10:01 pm
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Sometimes i loose track of what im looking for and it scares me, because following these forgetful moments comes those moments of doubt and dark and unrest. I try very hard to keep smiling, and if thats just too much, i try at least to keep still, but occasionaly those feelings find you, and all of a sudden you're going 50 miles per hour in a neighborhood. You're wondering who, what, where and especially when. During these days, weeks, months, however long they last, I tend to shower more often, and for longer periods of time. For me, the shower is so completely awkward that i cant take it seriously. Not showering as an action, but the physicality of it is so different from any other place. It doesnt ever feel real to me, it doesnt ever count, nothing i do or think attatches itself to new thoughts or ideas that carry on out of the shower. I think it is the displacement i feel that makes me crave showers, like the the sudden awareness of the abnormality of the world when your high or drunk. The shower causes me to evaporation from my life... This is not an ode to the shower if thats what you are thinking. This is not really anything, just an informative glare at the crossroads that stilll havent made themselves visable. Ive just been wondering why love has made itself so unavailable in my life. I guess somedays you feel like your floating, and other days you feel like your being pulled. I guess sometimes the present amusement is too distant from the next. I just hope that i can pull through this.
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| Tuesday, February 4th, 2003
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6:33 pm
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